Girls Language (^.^)

When she doesnt call you

[ Its because shes waiting for you to call her]

When she walks away from you mad

[ Follow her ]

When she stares at your mouth

[ Kiss her ]

When she pushs you or hits you

[ Grab her and dont let go ]

When she starts cussing at you

[ Kiss her and tell her you love her or a kiss and A shut up works also]

When shes quiet

[ Ask her whats wrong/Or mess with her. ]

When she ignores you

[ Give her your attention ]

When she pulls away

[ Pull her back ]

When you see her at her worst

[ Tell her shes beautiful ]

When you see her start crying

[ Hold her and tell her everything will be alright ]

When you see her walking

[ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind ]

When shes scared

[ Protect her ]

When she lays her head on your shoulder

[ Tilt her head up and kiss her ]

When she teases you

[ Tease her back and make her laugh ]

When she doesnt answer for a long time

[ reassure her that everything is okay ]

When she looks at you with doubt

[ Back yourself up ]

When she says that i like you

[ she really does more than you could understand ]

When she grab at your hands

[ Hold hers and play with her fingers ]

When she bumps into you

[ bump into her back and make her laugh ]

When she tells you a secret

[ keep it safe and untold ]

When she look at you in your eyes

[ dont look away until she does ]

When she misses you

[ shes hurting inside ]

When you break her heart

the pain never really goes away

When she say its over

[ she still wants you to be hers ]

When she repost this bulletin

[ she wants you to read it ]

Jafarul

1] You're smart

2] "Clan" relationship is totally not you~

3] Easy to ask for help

4] So far sape2 pun x penah talk back behind you

5] Your bahasa melayu sometimes twisted but that’s good

6] Everything seems good so far

btw 'clan' = like u now take example.. Not to condemn but do they hang out with us of we hang out with them?

You don’t stick to a specific group

You hang out with your classmate... from time 2 time u mabok2 with your other friend

Nue

ske tdo

PANDAI kottt

bwat keja last minute

ske mencarut. haha!

slalu nk headache

joel seorang yg pemalas

ske tido tp PANDAI nk mamposs …. aku bnci ko

den dia x ske bercinta itu pasal dia x de bf

dia ske membantu org

dan dia juga ske tdo di dlm claz

haa!! headache slalu menyerang dia di kala ada esemen

dia juga kuat mkn

dia ske kaler ijau

emosi dia juga cepat terganggu

dia ske KATAK

Syeera

joel seorg yg blur tapi stiap kali final cgpa gempak giler

ske tdo dlm kelas tapi akhirnye tau jgk jwb time final

ske mkn mcm babi

perot joel boncet sket sbb slalu mkn mcm babi

suke sgt katak.smpai display pic pun katak n ada katak ijau

ske kaler ijau tahap melampau sume pon nak ijau

ske minum guna 2 straw

slalu bli air mineral kat kedai bwh sbb joel tak minum air pantry

nyamuk ske gigit joel smpai benda spray nyamuk tu ada kat atas katil joel

joel ada satu perangai aneh. nama perangai tu perangai "tak nak lyn"

bile tnye joel, then ttbe die jwb "tak tau" dgn irama yg malas, mknanye joel malas lyn

joels suke berak

Kem

kau budak cine yg pandai

smart

frenly

aku suke kawn ngan kau

aku suke perangai kau sbb kau nie ader pendirian

kalo kau tak nak buat kau tak buat

tp kalo kau cam moody boleh tau la

kau nyer temper tak der ar teruk kau nyer normal

tak suke ikut org kire kau ader pendirian kau sendiri ar

suke tido dan makan macam babi

kau bergurau kekadang kau nyer lwak tk jadi tp biler jadi mmg lawak mcm haram!

kau study walaupun ader serius ader tak

tp semua bende yg kau bace masuk (AKU BENCI)!!!!

lepak pulak macam org biase tak der over.. kau banyak diam

tp biler ader bende kau nak ckp kau ckp

mase gossip... macam biase... tp kau tak banyak ar

mase kau bengang kau diam jer.. ktorg tau ar kau bengang

lelaki mmg kawan sejati aku ngan kau perempuan leceh

tak der pun mempertikaikan org lain

menyusahkan biler perlu jer

leceh?? tak der ar kau org yg senang aku nak layn

prob?? smua org ader prob

kalo kau rase bende yg org tegur tuh mendtgkan kebaikkan kau buat la

keras kepale?? sooo farrr tak der

saper benci kau??

Tidak dialu-alukan, tuh aku pun terase biler pergi rumah org tetibe

sombong?? tak der ar

BLURR SGT!!!!!!!!!!! jahat TAK kejam TAKLANGSUNG

kau more to cool.. manje?? aku tak nampak lagi

kesian?? tgk org... jugak kalo kau rapat ngan org tuh kau kesian, maner leh simply2 kesian kat org kan

simpati.. biler bende tuh patut kau simpati

batu api tak der.... nasihat..

kasar + sopan = kasosarpan

tatatertib.. BGAUS!

@_@

http://www.astrology-online.com/virgo.htm

With astrology we can examine the problem and assess the proper solution based on the sun sign characteristics. As a Virgo you may see things below that really strike home. Try the solution; you most likely will be amazed at the results. If you find yourself on the receiving end of the negatives below, it is because you are failing to express the positive.

Problem: Finding yourself frequently alone and unable to keep friends for more than a few weeks.
Solution: Try not to be argumentative over much and the constant criticism that Virgos give to their companions are not endearing qualities to have. Try to live and let live, they will love you for it.

Problem: People tend to avoid making close contact with you.
Solution: Being too preoccupied with health and making it a continual topic of conversation. Try to keep your tips and suggestions about health and health products to yourself unless asked for them.

Problem: Dissatisfied with the way your life is turning out; no excitement or change to speak of.
Solution: You may be restricting yourself by reducing your life to a set of theories and pigeon-holes. Try to express the positive by first asking yourself, who or what are you serving; are you devoted or are you enslaved. Answer those questions and then start a new path that includes your true worth.

Problem: You may feel that your life and your climb to success is a steep hill that you may never be able to scale.
Solution: Try expressing the positive traits of your finely tuned analytical reasoning, employing the light touch with employees and coworkers, while expressing genuine concern for all; you will find those mountains turning into hills that you run right over.

http://www.astrology-online.com/virgo.htm

Virgo is the only zodiacal sign represented by a female. It is sometimes thought of as a potentially creative girl, delicately lovely; sometimes as a somewhat older woman, intelligent but rather pedantic and spinsterish. The latter impression is sometimes confirmed by the Virgoan preciseness, refinement, fastidious love of cleanliness, hygiene and good order, conventionality and aristocratic attitude of reserve. They are usually observant, shrewd, critically inclined, judicious, patient, practical supporters of the status quo, and tend toward conservatism in all departments of life. On the surface they are emotionally cold, and sometimes this goes deeper, for their habit of suppressing their natural kindness may in the end cause it to atrophy, with the result that they shrink from committing themselves to friendship, make few relationships, and those they do make they are careful to keep superficial.

But the outward lack of feeling may, in some individuals born under this sign, conceal too much emotion, to which they are afraid of giving way because they do not trust others, nor do they have confidence in themselves and their judgments. This is because they are conscious of certain shortcomings in themselves of worldliness, of practicality, of sophistication and of outgoingness. So they bring the art of self concealment to a high pitch, hiding their apprehensiveness about themselves and their often considerable sympathy with other people under a mantle of matter-of-factness and undemonstrative, quiet reserve. They are still waters that run deep. Yet in their unassuming, outwardly cheerful and agreeable fashion, they can be sensible, discreet, well spoken, wise and witty, with a good understanding of other people's problems which they can tackle with a practicality not always evident in their own personal relationships.

Both sexes have considerable charm and dignity, which make some male Virgoans appear effeminate when they are not. In marriage they can be genuinely affectionate, making good spouses and parents, but their love making is a perfection of technique rather than the expression of desire, and they must be careful not to mate with a partner whose sex drive requires a passion they cannot match.

They are intellectually enquiring, methodical and logical, studious and teachable. They combine mental ingenuity with the ability to produce a clear analysis of the most complicated problems. They have an excellent eye for detail but they may be so meticulous that they neglect larger issues. Also, although they are realists, they may slow down projects by being too exact.

They are practical with their hands, good technicians and have genuine inventive talents, Thoroughness, hard work and conscientiousness are their hallmarks, and they are such perfectionists that, if things go wrong, they are easily discouraged. Because of their ability to see every angle of a many-sided question, they are unhappy with abstract theorizing. Appreciating the many different points of view as they do, they find philosophical concepts difficult, and they vacillate and have no confidence in any conclusions at which they arrive.

With these qualities, they are better as subordinates than leaders. Responsibility irks them and they often lack the breadth of strategic vision that a leader needs Virgoans are essentially tacticians, admirable in the attainment of limited objectives. Their self distrust is something they project on to other people and tends to make them exacting employers, though in the demands they make on those under them they temper this attitude with justice. They have potential abilities in the arts, sciences and languages. Language especially they use correctly, clearly, consciously and formally, as grammarians and etymologists rather than for literary interests, yet they are likely to have a good memory for apt quotations. Although they are well suited for careers in machine drawing, surveying and similar occupations, they are better fitted for a job in a library or office than a workshop.

Their minds are such that they need the stimulus of practical problems to be solved rather than the mere routine or working to set specifications that need no thought. They are careful with money and their interest in statistics makes them excellent bookkeepers and accountants. They also make good editors, physicists and analytical chemists. They may also find success as welfare workers, ministering to those less fortunate than themselves. They can be doctors, nurses, psychologists, teachers, confidential secretaries, technologists, inspectors, musicians, critics, public speakers and writers especially of reference works such as dictionaries and encyclopedias. Both sexes have a deep interest in history, a feature recognized by astrological authorities for at least two hundred years. If they go in for a business career their shrewdness and analytical ingenuity could tempt them into dishonesty, though they usually have enough moral sense to resist temptation. Female Virgoans may find a career in fashion, for they have a flair for dress, in which they can be trend setters. In any profession they choose the natives of this sign readily assimilate new ideas, but always with caution, conserving what they consider worth keeping from the past. They love country life but are unlikely to make good farmers, unless they can contrive to carry out their work without outraging their sense of hygiene and cleanliness.

Their faults, as is usual with all zodiacal types, are the extremes of their virtues. Fastidious reticence and modesty become old-maidishness and persnicketiness; balanced criticism becomes carping and nagging; and concern for detail becomes overspecialization. Virgoans are liable to indecision in wider issues and this can become chronic, turning molehills of minor difficulties into Himalayas of crisis. Their prudence can become guile and their carefulness, turned in on themselves, can produce worriers and hypochondriacs.

Traditional Virgo Traits

Modest and shy
Meticulous and reliable
Practical and diligent
Intelligent and analytical

on The Dark Side...

Fussy and a worrier
Overcritical and harsh
Perfectionist and conservative

Here are a few reasons why guys like girls: (from a guy’s perspective)

1. They will always smell good even if its just shampoo
2. The way their heads always find the right spot on our shoulder
3. How cute they look when they sleep
4. The ease in which they fit into our arms
5. The way they kiss you and all of a sudden everything is right in the world
6. How cute they are when they eat
7. The way they take hours to get dressed but in the end it makes it all worth while
8. Because they are always warm even when its minus 30 outside
9. The way they look good no matter what they wear
10. The way they fish for compliments even though you both know that you think she's the most beautiful thing on this earth
11. How cute they are when they argue
12. The way her hand always finds yours
13. The way they smile
14. The way you feel when you see their name on the call ID after you just had a big fight
15. The way she says "lets not fight anymore" even though you know that an hour later....
16. The way they kiss when you do something nice for them
17. The way they kiss you when you say "I love you"
18. Actually ... just the way they kiss you...
19. The way they fall into your arms when they cry
20. Then the way they apologize for crying over something that silly
21. The way they hit you and expect it to hurt
22. Then the way they apologize when it does hurt. (even though we don't admit it)!
23. The way they say "I miss you"
24. The way you miss them
25. The way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesn't hurt her anymore.....

Yet regardless if you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without them ... it matters not.
Because once in your life, whatever they were to the world they become everything to you.
When you look them in the eyes, traveling to the depths of their souls and you say a million things
without trace of a sound, you know that your own life is inevitable consumed within the rhythmic beatings of her very heart.
We love them for a million reasons.
No paper would do it justice.
It is a thing not of the mind but of the heart.
A feeling.
Only felt.

It was years back when I had these running in my head... yea, thnx for reminding i'm near 20 !

(;_;)

26 Things a Sweet Guy Will Do

1. Know how to make you smile when you are down.

2. Try to secretly smell your hair BUT you always notice.

3. Stick up for you but still respectful of your independence.

4. Give you the remote control during the game.

5. Come up behind you, put his arms around you, squeeze you tightly against his chest, and whisper softly into your ear.

6. Play with your hair.

7. His hands will always find yours.

8. Be cute when he really wants something.

9. Offer you plenty of massages.

10. Dance with you even if he feels like a dork.

11. Never run out of love.

12. Be funny, but knows when to be serious.

13. Realize he's being funny when he needs to be serious.

14. Be patient when you take forever to get ready.

15. React so cutely when you hit him and it actually hurts.

16. Smile alot.

17. Plan a romantic date full of cheesy things he wouldn't normally do just b/c he knows it means alot to you.

18. Appreciate you.

19. Help others out.

20. Drive 5 hours just to see you for 1.

21. Always give you a peck on the cheek when you depart from each other's company-even when friends are watching.

22. Sing even if he can't

23. Have a creative sense of humor.

24. Stare at you.

25. Call for no reason

26. Quit smoking, chewing, drinking, or drugs just b/c he loves you enough to quit!!

@_@

SEPTEMBER

Suave and compromising.
Careful, cautious and organized.
Likes to point out people's mistakes.
Likes to criticize.
Quiet but able to talk well.
Calm and cool.
Kind and sympathetic.
Concerned and detailed.
Trustworthy, loyal and honest.
Does work well.
Very confident.
Sensitive.
Thinking generous.
Good memory.
Clever and knowledgeable.
Loves to look for information.
Must control oneself when criticizing.
Able to motivate oneself.
Understanding.
Fun to be around.
Secretive.
Loves sports, leisure and travelling.
Hardly shows emotions.
Tends to bottle up feelings.
Choosy especially in relationships.
Loves wide things.
Systematic.


@_@

VIRGO WOMAN

She will be similar to Leo woman in appearance.
A slim woman who walks with confident and proud.
She has an egg shape facial structure, high and round forehead.
She likes to look straight as if she is searching.
She is not a pretentious type and will always say what she thinks.

You will see Virgo woman walks fast.
She will try her best to be perfect, to look perfect and to feel perfect even though there is no such perfection.
She is very delicate of what and how she dress.
She is bright and easily despair with obstacles.
She likes smart guy who will be compatible with her, so if you are a rich dumb guy, you can forget about her right now.

She is not a very possessive or jealous person for she expect respect from her love one.
She does not like a part time lover, or a temporary mate.
If she finds her dream man, she will not go away.
If she does not like you, she will always keep a certain distant.
Act proper and appropriate is her discipline.

She does not like and can not stand bad languages, cursing words or phrase.
She likes a gentleman who open the doors for her.
She wants to feel protected and when a man taking care of her, she will feel like a complete woman.

She memorizes everything about other people and about herself very well.
She can really keep secret, you can trust her on this.
She likes a refreshing and a mild scent.
She is very delicate in maintaining her beauty, so you could see she is seriously picking soap which match and most suit her skin.
Do not comments her on this very picky habits, it is her happiness in working full times as a self beautifier.

She is not an innocent angel for sometimes she can be as tough as steel.
Even she easily despair, she is not the type to cry over it.
She is a shy type, so making speech in front of the room can make her nervous even she walks and talks confidently.

She only search for true love , not just any love.
Her love is an ideal one.
She likes to think no one is neater and as effective as her, which can irritate you sometimes for there is no such thing.
She likes sweet talk, but she can slip and say something unpredictable and unbearable to you too. When she stops getting mad, she will totally forget what she just said and be an angel again.
If you have a date with her, you'd better be there on time.

Flowers and sweet word can calm her down.
If you want to say sorry , make it brief and straight forward.
Do not drag your apologetic words into a long making it up events, it could lead you to another world war.
She likes her man to dress nice and clean.
She is good in details especially with money.
Do not make she thinks that she is a clown or funny.

In the beginning of knowing her, please try not to glance at other pretty woman so much.
Early period of dating her, try not to hold her so much in public, it would not be a proper thing to do. She loves books, stage play and music and likes to criticize about them too.

Criticism woman is her icon including big and small things in life starting from your hair, your dress , and the way you talk.
If you are in love with her, be as almost perfect as your can.

VIRGO - The Virgin (provided by kemBONG)

Dominant in relationships. <--- proved Sexy. <--- what ya think?
Someone loves them right now. <--- thanx to my family
Freak in bed. <--- hmm?
Always wants the last word. <--- should be
Caring. <--- ya tell me
Smart. <--- in terms of?
Intellectual. <--- does my results count?
Addictive. <--- yea, 3 mins
Attractive. <--- well ...
Loud. <--- yea, when i scream
Loyal. <--- ooopps
Easy to talk to. <--- when i know you
Hard to forget. <--- hopefully Love at first sight. <--- don't really remember
Everything you ever wanted. <--- huh?
Easy to please. <--- kinda
The one and only. <--- what?
Ultimate sexiness. <--- how?


@_@

I was told the true definition of a man was to never cry
Work till you tired (yeah) got to provide (yeah)
Always be the rock for my fam, protect them by all means
(and give you the things that you need, baby)
Our relationship is (suffering) trying to give you (what I never had)
You say I don't know to love you baby
Well I say show me the way
I keep my feelings (deep inside I)
Shadow them (with my pride eye)
I'm trying desperately baby just work with me

Teach me how to love
Show me the way to surrender my heart, girl I'm so lost
Teach me how to love
How I can get my emotions involved
Teach me, show me how to love
Show me the way to surrender my heart, girl I'm lost
Teach me how to love
How I can get my emotions involved
Teach me, how to love

I was always taught to be strong
never let them think you care at all
Let know one get close to me
Before (you and me)
I den' shared things wit chu girl about my past
That I'd never tell to anyone else (no)
Just keep it to myself, (yes)
Now I know I lack affection and expressing my feelings
It took me a minute to come and admit this but
See I'm really try'na (change now)
Wanna love you better, (show me how)
I'm tryin desperately baby hey

Ain't nobody ever took the time to try to teach me what (love was but you)
And I ain't never trust anyone enough to let em tell me (what to do)
Teach me how to show it and show me how to love you baby
(Teach me please just show me yeah)
Cause I'm (willing)
To let (go) of my (fears) girl I'm (serious)
About (all that I've said)
Girl I (wanna love you) with (all my heart)
Baby show me where to start

[VAMP:]
Girl just teach me how to love you better
You know I wanna love you better girl


from Musiq SoulChild - Teach Me

When I was 7
They said I was strange
I noticed that my eyes and hair weren't the same
I asked my parents if I was OK
They said you're more beautiful
And that's the way they show that they wish
That they had your smile
So my confidence was up for a while
I got real comfortable with my own style
I knew that they were only jealous cos

People are all the same
And we only get judged by what we do
Personality reflects name
And if I'm ugly then
So are you
So are you

There was a time when I felt like I cared
That I was shorter than everyone there
People made me feel like life was unfair
And I did things that made me ashamed
Cos I didn't know my body would change
I grew taller than them in more ways
But there will always be the one who will say
Something bad to make them feel great

People are all the same
And we only get judged by what we do
Personality reflects name
And if I'm ugly then
So are you
So are you

Everybody talks bad about somebody
And never realises how it affects somebody
And you bet it won't be forgotten
Envy is the only thing it could be

Sugababes - Ugly (inspiration from Ugly Betty?)

Its one thing to ask why we break up
Have you ever
Wondered why it is we fall in love
Can you tell me
Do you know what it is you're looking for
What do we need
Can you tell me why I care
How is it that we heed
That voice that says i want you there

Thanks you've been fuel the thought
Now im more lonely than before
But thats okay i've just ready-made another fucking love song
Thanks you've been fuel the thought
Now im more lonely than before
But thats okay i've just ready-made another fucking love song

In a single moment you might be perfect
And sit
In a window of my life
But how much how much more you yearn see
What would i strive to hide
Now there will be no compromise
So take it in your stride
I will leave you now with a smile

Thanks you've been fuel the thought
Now im more lonely than before
But thats okay i've just ready-made another fucking love song
And thanks you've been fuel the thought
Now im more lonely than before
But thats okay i've just ready-made another fucking love song

Look into my eyes
Our's is no love sacrifice
For it has helped us to grow
And im sorry i know just how far i have to go alone

Thanks you've been fuel the thought
Now im more lonely than before
But thats okay i've just ready-made another fucking love song
And thanks you've been fuel the thought
Now im more lonely than before
But thats okay i've just ready-made another fucking love song

I've just ready-made another love song
Just ready-made another love song

from Amiel - Another Fucking Love Song

if you got an eerie feeling after hanging up the phone
sort of happy feeling but you're not sure what it's called

if you're haunted by his face whenever you're asleep at night
and think you hear his silly voice just calling out your name

oh, no! I think i'm in love with you..
on, no! i'm hoping you'll want me too
so, please..don;t let me down!

just can't help but talk about him in every conversation
till your friends are sick and tired of that same old crap

if you start wearing make up even when you go to bed
crying like a baby when you hear a mellow song

From Mocca - I Think I'm in Love

I'm not waitin' around for a man to save me
(Cause I'm happy where I am)
Don't depend on a guy to validate me
(No no)
I don't need to be anyone's baby
(Is that so hard to understand?)
No I don't need another half to make me whole

Make your move if you want
Doesn't mean I will or won't
I'm free to make my mind up
You either got it or you don't

This is my current single status
My declaration of independence

Don't need to be on somebody's arm to look good
(I like who I am)
I'm not saying I don't wanna fall in love 'cause I would
I'm not gonna get hooked up just 'cause you say I should
(Can't romance on demand)
I'm gonna wait so I'm sorry if you misunderstood

Everything in it's right time everything in its right place
I know I'll settle down one day


from Natasha Beddingfield - Single

A loss that would have thrown
A hole through anybody's soul
And you were only human after all
So don't hold back the tears my dear
Release them so your eyes can clear
I know that you will rise again
But you gotta let them fall
I wish that I could snap my fingers
Erase the past but no
You cannot rewind reality
Once the tape's unrolled


If your spirit's broken and you can't bear the pain
I will help you put the pieces back
A little more each day
And if your heart is locked and you can't find the key
Lay your head upon my shoulder
I'll set you free
I'll be your security

A moment of despair
That forces you to say that life's unfair
It makes you scared of what tomorrow may bring
But don't go giving into fear
Stop hiding all alone in there
The show keeps going on and on
But you'll miss the whole damn thing
I wish I had a crystal ball to see what the future holds
But we don't know how the story ends till it's all been told


On any clock upon the wall
The time is always now
So baby kiss the past goodbye
Don't let the future blow your mind
Just sit back and chill
Take things as they come
You can't be afraid
To live for today
I will be with you each step of the way

from Joss Stone - Security

{
My birthday became different from that day,
Perhaps now...
I only can feel I'm existing in my birthday,
I exist because of your blessing, "Happy Birthday"
}

Happie Burfday.

You want to stay with me in the morning
You only hold me when I sleep

You already waited up for hours
Just to spend a little time alone with me

I never thought that I'd love someone
That was someone else's dream

from James Morrison - You Give Me Something

I’m sick of my life right now.

I have no idea what the heck I’m doing.

I’m tired and I’m bored of it.

This drives me crazy and made me felt mad of myself.

I just couldn’t get rid of these, out of my life.

I felt like shit and it’s jumbling up in my head.

I hate these feelings.

It doesn’t make me feel somehow good, not to mention enjoyable.

This is the end of the story. What is it all about being me?

I’m speechless.

I got pissed off.

This is crazy.

I’ve got no idea what’s been revolving around me now.

I hardly knew what’s going on in my life.

It seems like I’m living everyday off, being effortless and worthless.

I’m sick of everything, everyone, even myself.

Is it time to wake up?

Or is it time to really consider and plan for a better route to continue the path of my life?

Where does the path of my life will lead me to?

It’s like living without a life, without a dream, without a direction.

I felt lost. I don’t felt being alive.

I wasn’t supposed to feel and be like this.

This is not what I was supposed to have in my life.

It’s sad to know that truth always kills.

Fairy tales never will happen in the real world.

Fantasies just got us indulge deeper and deeper into the fake world of lies.

Hate to admit that these circumstances force me to live my life the way it is right now.

Why do I encounter all these in my life? Why do I have to face all these circumstances?

Why do I have to do the way it was then?

Shouldn’t I be known to any other alternatives made available by anyhow?

Perhaps a better remedy or so, I hate to escape. I hate to deceive myself. I hate lies.

To escape means to ignore. To ignore means to run away.

To face it needs courage. I’m lack of it, but it has to be done somehow.

It might just caused more and more unwanted circumstances to take place.

I do not want these to happen in my life.

It’s distracting. I hardly could focus and concentrate.

I hate to know the truth but I rather to face it frankly and directly.

To have the courage to know the fact makes me felt more realistic.

To keep things to myself make me felt stuck. I want to make myself known to all.

Being what I’m now is the hardest fact to accept.

Felt like being in the dark hole with no light to direct me which way to proceed next.

I’m in need of direction. Please lead me. Please tell me how to decide my life.

I hate to see the way I’m right now. I hate to accept me this way. I hate my life now.

Tell me, lead me, direct me, and be with me.

I’m lack of faith in everything I encountered and everyone I met in my life.

Please let me know what is desire and drives me the way everything it should be.